A Walk Through Life

Have you ever been in a situation where others perceive a negative image of you - sometimes to the point of being hurt and almost losing your self-esteem in the process? When I was still working in an office setting, I had my share of office politics. Back then, I used to be team leader before I decided to step down  because I wanted to be free from stress to finally have Dipdip in my life. It's not like I was handling a really big team but I can definitely say that it was a team that was quite a challenge to one's leadership skills, especially when you are just starting.

have you ever found out something about someone you wished you hadn't? everybody has secrets. some things weren't meant to be revealed but for some reason, somebody makes a complete idiot of himself/herself and messed it up. well, at least that's how it occurred to me. everytime i bump into this person, i thought to myself, "how can you ruin yourself like that?" i know in the eyes of many, this person is somebody you would want to look up to, emulate or something but quite sadly, he/she is a complete disappointment. nobody's perfect, indeed, but i guess this one won't make a decent excuse. we are all capable for our actions. we are responsible for our own mess. how in the world is he/she going to fix that? i wonder. i'm sure somebody else knows about this "secret" stuff. if it's any consolation, i'm not gonna blow it. that secret is safe with me, even though i honestly never liked what i knew. hmmm, i had better stop this before it tu...

Looking back, I never thought I would ever find someone I would marry. It was even hard to get myself a boyfriend for an inspiration. I guess I’ve never been that attractive to men. While most women have been blessed with good looks and good curves, I have been blessed with brains more than the physical aspect. I’m not saying I’m too ugly to be with anybody. It’s just that I had a lot more insecurities at that time than I can handle. I was young then. I hated it when people and "so-called" friends notice your flaws instead of focusing on the positive things about you. In short, I have always felt less beautiful but I have somehow managed to hide my insecurities by always being the funny and witty girl around. I was always everybody’s friend. I was always the unattached . By being so, I have excused myself from being somebody’s apple of the eye. But it was always my family who saw me as beautiful. My mom would always say I’m a late bloomer , the reason why I haven’t met my guy...

what is it with some people? why are they not careful with the words they say? a never-ending question. i'm not buying all that personality excuses. if we can't be polite with somebody, might as well shut up. grrrrrr... all that blog i just read today about "annoying people" with all the reasons why they exist in our lives suddenly returns to me. patience. patience. patience. everything and everyone requires patience. got loads of it, usually; however, don't go beyond my limits coz i'm only human. in the words of natalie imbruglia, "i could sting like a bee, careful how you treat me."