A Walk Through Life

Vision without action is a daydream. Action without vision is a nightmare. – Japanese Proverb I looked in the mirror today and realized I am already getting older. Honestly, I keep forgetting how old I am until my next birthday comes and people would ask my age. That's when I would instantly use calculator application on my desktop and subtract the year I was born to the current year today and I couldn't believe that the resulting difference represents my own age. Haha! I keep telling them though what I read somewhere that it is not polite to ask a woman her age. At the back of my mind, however, I would already have some panicky feeling about my age and how much I have yet to accomplish in life. Has it been less than a year ago  since I've written about my legacies in life? I believe I'm still not far from fulfilling my dreams for my family and even the goals I have set for myself although I am afraid that without a clear timeline, I would not have enough time to fulf...

It's been thirty-three years of existence, and still counting, and yet at this point in time, I felt like I haven't really done much. Or have I? I think and I know there's still so much more to achieve. I don't have to be a perfectionist to be able to realize that I can go through life better than this. So much better than this. I didn't mean the material things because they're just passing fancies. Everything and everyone will all come to pass. Pondering on these things, I just realized that I've already hit my middle age, that is, if you look at the current average life span of a human being. And yet, at this stage in my life, I felt like there are lots of things that are left undone. Frankly, I really don't know why. I guess I'm just so afraid life won't permit me to fulfill all my dreams for my family while I still can. I'd like to see my daughter grow up, go to school, have a job, and have a family of her own. Or who knows, she just mi...

i am such a cry-baby. i cry over even the smallest of things--sad commercials, soap operas, sad movie endings, stomach cramps, etc. you can just imagine how it is going with me especially now that i am pregnant. hormones, yes, that's a good guess. or maybe i am just plainly old me! you see, i was watching my favorite drama on tv "Iisa Pa Lamang" and i felt so bad that i could relate to the sad plight of claudine barretto's character where it got me teary-eyed. in-between commercials, i was also going through our wedding album and found my mom's letter safely kept in one of those picture holders. mommy wrote it for me and stephen the morning after our wedding. i cried again. her letter would always touch my heart even though i've re-read it several times. i realized that this was the last letter she had made for me (and hubby). it pains me still. i'm happy. i'm sad. it's always a roller coaster ride. i'm happy because i know where she is right...