Friday, May 29, 2009

separation anxiety

"At work, you think of the children you have left at home. At home, you think of the work you've left unfinished. Such a struggle is unleashed within yourself. Your heart is rent." -- Golda Meir

Ever since I got back from work, I couldn't help but think about my daughter back home. Yes, it's separation anxiety. I know all working mothers go through this and it's only a matter of time till they can adjust to the situation, but, I don't know how long it would take for me, I just felt so bad about leaving my daughter behind to the care of a nanny when I should be the one attending to her.

Why bear a child and leave her behind? I thought if my daughter could only complain, she would probably ask me that. Mama and papa needs to work baby, so we can afford raising you and sending you to school someday.

It's called a mother's sacrifice. It's painful having to leave your child to somebody else, especially when that somebody is not even your relative. I don't want to think that Dipdip will feel more for her yaya more than her very own mother. I'd still like to think that the bond between a mother and a child could not be easily erased.

I am Dipdip's mother. Nothing and no one can take her away from me.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

BP update

it's been awhile since i've last monitored my blood pressure. i felt like everything's going back to normal. or so i thought. when i went back to my ob gyne last sunday for a post-natal checkup, i had a BP reading of 130/90. i used to be 110/70 prior to pregnancy. doctor said that i might be hypertensive already. chronic hypertension, that is. she will refer me to an internist when my BP wouldn't go down below 130/90 after june 6th. i think that's already past the 6-week recovery period from c-section. she said that 130/90 BP is a boundary between normal and hypertensive and with that, i need to closely monitor my BP. nowadays, i am told, a systolic of 90 and above needs aggressive treatment because of a high incidence of stroke in patients ages 30 and above. whew, that's the scary part. i guess i would need to closely monitor my BP again, and eat healthy foods. *sigh*

turning two months today


"There is only one pretty child in the world, and every mother has it." - Chinese Proverb

wohooooo... what's up? dipdip is now two months old. wow, that was fast. it still feels like yesterday when i gave birth but when i look at my daughter, my golly, i can't believe that the child i'm seeing before my very eyes came from me! a product of love. she's grown bigger each day and Lord knows how thankful i am for giving me this wonderful gift. she will become my new inspiration. i will give all my best to be the kind of mom that she deserves.


Thursday, May 21, 2009

turbochargers and fast cars

When hubby’s sister left for Norway, she left her car at his care. They had been communicating and discussing about customizing the looks of her car so it will physically look like a sports car, from the car interior accessories down to the latest wheels and rims designs, and body kits. What’s up sis? Well, she’s getting married in June and wants to surprise her partner with this car when they get back here in the Philippines. So hubby had been looking around for a reliable automotive shop to detail the car engine. Since they wanted the car to look like a sports car, they are also planning to make it run like one. Incidentally, I just learned about turbo and superchargers over the Internet. A turbo or supercharger can surely get them the speed which they long for. If you’re adventurous like my sister-in-law and her fiance, a turbo or supercharger can do the trick. They say it gives you the feeling of a race car driver when you’re driving. If you are interested in turbo or superchargers for your rides, check out http://www.turbochargerpros.com/ to find the perfect match for your cars.

a mother's day and a baby shower



I just had to write about the gifts I received on the day of Mother's Day. Came right on time. They're like Mother's Day gifts and a baby shower. Oh, daddy pippen had one too. They're gifts from Jenneth. Thanks a lot, Tita Jenneth.

Thank you, Lord. And Jenn Lord. :)

Belated Happy Mother's Day, everyone. Actually, as Bchai puts it, everyday is Mother's Day. So, happy mother's day to us! Cheers!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

rural yet urbane

About three months ago, we bought a beautiful furniture set made of bamboo logs. I fell in love with its design that we didn’t push through with the plan of buying the sofa set that we saw at the mall. It saved us a few bucks! It gives a rural yet urbane appeal to our simple concrete house. You’d be amazed just how much love and effort a simple furniture maker puts into his small business of making beautiful furniture out of simple bamboo logs. He didn’t even use high-tech equipments, just his skillful hands. It was not until I bumped into this interesting furniture website that I realized that the furniture set I bought was called a “rustic furniture”. All the things we learn every single day. Yes, I’m proud to say that I own a “rustic furniture” as this type of furniture never goes out of style.

my little DipDip changes color

here's a little update on my little princess. lately, our sweet pauline's skin color has changed. i don't know how it happened but i suspected she had too much exposure to sunlight. her nanny seems to have overdone the "sunshine" thing as i once caught her still walking the baby outdoors even when it's past 8 a.m. i'm not sure about this though. this can also be her "true" color, the "morena" effect. hmmm pretty soon she'll have the makings of a ms. universe hahaha i must be dreaming...

check out her before and after pictures.


DipDip at 4 weeks


DipDip at 6 weeks

My oh my, she's only less than two months old but look at her "siopao" face. LOL

Saturday, May 9, 2009

chasing time

i have a pretty good explanation for my long absence in this blogging world. yes, i was again caught up with a lot of things. time management. or the lack of it. it seems like i've been doing a lot of "catching up" lately. i honestly needed a secretary to help me with all my schedules. i guess i'm no longer good with math. i simply cannot do the simple rule of division. somebody please tell me how to divide my time!

to start with, i'm already back at work. oh well, at first i didn't quite like the idea of having to go back to work that soon. what with my baby still needing my time and attention. in fact, an extension of time would have done me a favor, healthwise, but i realized i needed to go back to work so i can also help my husband with all the family expenses. i couldn't believe an infant formula can only last for a week or two. now if only i can store a lot of breast milk for my baby while i am not around. too bad, i don't have that much of a supply. lately, i get to breastfeed her on weekdays during nighttime only. oh my gas! the diapers are also eating up a lot of our budget too! all these milk and diaper expenses could eventually send us to bankruptcy if i didn't agree to go back to work.

even with a nanny to take care of our baby, it seems like we're always in a rush. add to that, hubby is still trying to do better at work. it means having to extend his stay in the office beyond his working hours most of the time and me having to wait on him because we're saving up on gas. i mean on fares (we're riding a motorcycle to get to work and back home). this also means having less time with the baby and baby spending more time with her nanny. oh my! although the baby gets to sleep with us during nighttime, i'm getting worried about the possibility for dip2x to feel more for her nanny than she would for her mom or her dad. this is why we're sending her nanny on two days off so we can spend full-time with dip2x on saturdays and sundays.

as for my postpartum hypertension, im no longer feeling any of its symptoms. i've thrown it all away. down the drain. i'm too busy and happy to even worry about it.
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