Thursday, December 31, 2009
So, to all of you out there who probably have no idea what to give to their loved ones on their birthdays, as simple as a birthday cake with their name on it would give them a smile on their faces.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
First of all, we are not saints or saintly. I mean, we make mistakes, we keep making mistakes. We even miss to go to Sunday mass sometimes for many different reasons that are not sometimes valid. Now, I'm thinking what valid reason can you ever think of for not putting God first? Maybe if you were so sick that you couldn't get out of bed. I also do confess that there were times that I forget to pray before I go to sleep because I would sometimes come to bed already too sleepy to do that. And everytime I wake up, it makes me feel GUILTY everytime I realized I skipped saying my prayers.
Yes, I would feel very guilty because God has been very good to us. We may have trials but He was and is always there to help us. So far, there weren't any trials that didn't have any solutions just when we needed it.
Lately, we started to worry again about a lot of things--things pertaining to financial stability and other concerns. It's always the present and the future that we are worried about. We often ask ourselves, "Why do things happen so unexpectedly?"
Sometimes we come to a point where we question God why He allows unpleasant things to happen. In fact, I felt so sad and depressed about the Maguindanao massacre that's been on the news. When you really think about it, you would really wonder and cry out "Lord, how did you allow these things to happen? Why did you allow such brutal killings?" Yeah, I felt that way when I saw it on the news. And my husband was again quick to remind me that I shouldn't question God. Things always happen for a reason. God has reasons for everything that our human minds sometimes could not understand. Without "leaning on our own understanding," we just simply have to trust in the Lord.
Speaking of unpleasant things, this is a testimony of God's goodness. Effective on the 30th of November, my hubby lost his job. Well, retrenchment news is no real shocker to almost anyone anymore. But in our case, it is still a cause for worry. But we still prayed to God that He will help us in every journey, through victory or difficulty. You know what, it is really true -- God will replace everything that we have lost, we just need to have that faith. On December 1st, he got a new job. God replaced it with an even much-better paying full time home-based job. And now both of us are into home-based. Now, we are going anywhere and wherever God would take us, no questions asked!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
So, to all of you sons and daughters out there. Seize the times or the moments that you still have the chance to be with your mom or your parents. You'll never know how much chance you've got!
Here's an old picture of me with my mom(+) and dad... I will always be their loving daughter :-)
Thursday, November 12, 2009
I don't have to be a perfectionist to be able to realize that I can go through life better than this. So much better than this. I didn't mean the material things because they're just passing fancies. Everything and everyone will all come to pass. Pondering on these things, I just realized that I've already hit my middle age, that is, if you look at the current average life span of a human being. And yet, at this stage in my life, I felt like there are lots of things that are left undone. Frankly, I really don't know why. I guess I'm just so afraid life won't permit me to fulfill all my dreams for my family while I still can. I'd like to see my daughter grow up, go to school, have a job, and have a family of her own. Or who knows, she just might have a sibling one day, too. I kept praying to God to give me more time with my family. Quality time, that is.
Since I can no longer hold the years back, I'd like to be able to leave some legacy, if not for everyone to remember me by, then at least for my family so they will always think of me.
They say we can do these things, but not necessarily in this order, to leave some legacies in this life:
1. Plant A Tree. This is something I have not done yet. I've planted crops but not a tree. A tree is a good legacy especially if you plant the perennial type. When I leave this world and the tree has grown, and continued to bear fruits, they will always think of the one who planted the tree. Well, hopefully.
2. Have A Child. If you have children and especially if they grow to be the best of your kind, people will remember the tree (the parent) who bore the fruit (the child). I think I already have some points in this "criteria", if I can call it that. :-)
3. Write A Book. If you write a book, especially if it's a good one, people will remember the author and will get recognized for the work. Well, I'm working on it. If doing some blogging won't pass for this third requirement, then I'll be working on it.
4. Reach Out to People. I've added this as another legacy that I think not any person would want to do but I'd like to be able to do this my own way and in any way I can.
I am just so grateful I still have time to do what I have to do. In general, I've already made a legacy by being thirty-three, a wife, and a mom to a beautiful daughter (and a daughter, a sister, a niece, a friend, a relative, etc.)...
Sunday, November 1, 2009
My in-laws came over on the 31st. It was like a belated birthday celebration of hubby. My husband and I, who were supposed to be the hosts of the celebration, didn’t get to spend a single penny because they brought some food and drinks with them when they got here. Dad arrived in the afternoon where he also joined in the celebration. It was one whole day of fun and laughter. If you happen to know my husband’s side of the family, you would know why. :)
Saturday, October 17, 2009
So, this is again another proof of God's unfailing love. People may turn their backs on us but the Lord will never abandon us in our time of need. There may be tough times but all these will make us stronger and wiser. And more GRATEFUL for His LOVE! I’m giving back all these to the glory of God. Thank You Oh God for sending me my new employer. Thank You for making all these things possible. Thank you for being such a sweet GOD! In You will we always put our trust.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
We’ve been warned not to overfeed though. We will have her try different kinds and flavors of cereals, one at a time. So, aside from taking her milk supplement, she will have baby cereals three times a day for her breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was also told that we should make sure that she didn’t take her milk two hours before her scheduled feeding so that she would still have some appetite for the solid food. Right now, she’s still trying to like eating her cereals. It’s such a mess when she’s being fed but it’s alright because she’s still trying to get to know her food. As with my first experience, not only was she messy, she would also try to grab the spoon that I used to feed her on. I wasn’t prepared for it, and so she succeeded and had a good grip of the spoon which she immediately put in her mouth. Thankfully, I was able to retrieve it back from the female baby version of Robin Hood! LOL
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Incidentally, it's her sixth month today. Time to change her infant formula Enfalac to a milk supplement Enfapro! By the way, this is not paid advertisment, LOL. We were also advised to start feeding her some cereals and then later on mashed potatoes, mashed carrots. I wished I was taking down notes but I believe my memory's still working. Anyhow, everything is just a Google away. I will also review Bchai's post from the time she started feeding her own Rome. Oh, I'm pretty much excited about feeding her, although I'm not so looking forward to the new smell of her poop. HEHEHE
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
When I was seven years old
I had fever that day but I refused to stay at home. I went against my parents' decision to be absent from school. I don't know if you can call it "karma" or it may just not be my lucky day after all but I got myself soaked and wet from my hips all the way down. My skirt, underwear, shoes and socks were all wet! It's either someone (a silly classmate) pushed me swimming to a large fish pond at school or I must have slipped from where I was standing while I was fish watching with classmates. I had to go home to change. Thankfully, my fever went away. Obviously, I got a little spanking from mom after that.
When I was in college
When I was in my first year in college, I wore high-heeled shoes to go with my blouse and skirt uniform. There was a time when I didn't watch my steps. I slipped my foot while going downstairs. I was lucky, a classmate was able to hold my hand that prevented me from being the Jill who "came tumbling after". That didn't prevent my shoe from falling all the way down, though. Before I knew it, a guy picked my shoe and handed it back to me. I was an embarrassed Cinderella because I created a scene. I took a day's absent from school after that to give the students who witnessed my show some time to forget about me and the great slip. :)
When I was already working
While hurrying to get to the office and avoid getting late and getting a deduction from my payroll, I didn't notice myself going towards a wall that was made of clear (but hard)glass. I bumped my face and my forehead too hard that I literally saw "stars" in the process. I was in both pain and embarrassment. My forehead was swelling that I stayed inside the office the whole shift. I didn't take my break from sheer embarrassment. By the way, I came right on time!
My point is, I'm not perfect. In fact, I'm close to being perfectly silly! LOL
Good night, guys!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
It looks like she has almost outgrown her crib and I find it too small for a playpen. LOL. I guess it's time to discuss with her father about getting something safer for her age and built.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
So it's joannamashka.com now with the blogspot removed. If you're wondering why I used joannamashka. It's because joannemarie.com was already taken. I could've used walkthroughlife too but it's already taken as well. Then I remembered a good friend of mine Coco who used to call me "Mashka" during high school, a name taken from a character in one of the pocketbooks she came across reading. So it's a combination of Joanne and Mashka, joannamashka. Like you really wanna know the story. Hehehe. Like I really wanna sing right now "I'm nothing special.. in fact, I'm a bit of a bore~~~"
And don't ask me how I got meretrisha. I coined it myself. It's definitely not taken from the word meretricious. LOL. Please don't even try to look it up on the dictionary, you wouldn't like it.
I miss you all here friends and co-bloggers!
Monday, September 14, 2009
Lately, our little angel has been experiencing some discomfort because of her swelling gums. I don’t know when a tooth or two will show up completely but I can already see something white through her lower gums. I feel sad for her. If only I have the power to take away all the pain she’s feeling, I would gladly take her place. Despite all the discomfort, over all, she’s still a cheerful baby. I’m proud to say that she’s generally a happy baby. Not cranky. She would still smile at me as if trying to assure me that she can handle everything. Every time she’s feeling some discomfort and pain, I would just carry her and sing her some songs and she would just pinch my flabby (ouch!) arms and then she would seem to be okay. I love it when she looks and smiles at me. After that, I would already hear her saying something. Yeah, I can’t wait till I would hear her say “Mama”. As for now, I just hope she can get through her teething with less and less pain.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Update update update! It's been eleven days since I've been at home with my daughter. I pretty much haven't done anything except for those few small writing opportunities. Oh, you have no idea how MUCH I missed bonding with my daughter! You see, she's almost on her sixth month and I enjoy every knowing look and smile she throws at me. I enjoy every minute of playtime with Dipdip that it's just so hard to do anything else. Hehehe. Anyway, beginning today, I'm gonna try harder and get more online work. I still have so much time, though. Procrastinator me! :)
Monday, September 7, 2009
I was starting to like Shan's idea of collecting stamps. In short, I have no originality hehehe. I know I should have written about this sooner but we were at Stephen's parents then. I have received a postcard from Shan and some stamps from France to add to my collection. Hmmm, I have yet to buy an album for the stamps. I wonder how long it would take for me to collect stamps from other countries. Maybe I wouldn't have time to collect all of them. I might pass this on to Dipdip pretty soon.
It's good to have a lot of hobbies!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Pretty costumes for my pretty daughter!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
issue no. 2. when i had her interviewed, i told her that i terminated my previous nanny because she can't seem to fulfill her work schedule. she would come back on a monday at noontime even when we agreed that she would come back on Sunday after her saturday off. thankfully, i was still on maternity leave at that time. this time, i expected her not to do the same. but i was wrong. she would leave at dawn on saturday and would keep a trend of coming back on mondays at 4 a.m. she always had reasons for everything. blah blah blah. i was tired of her lame excuses. still, we kept our patience because our monday work was not jeopardized because she would arrive at dawn, although she would really rob us an extra hour of sleep because we would be awakened from our sleep when she comes knocking on our door so early. this went unsolved because she would agree to come back on sunday before she would leave the house and then come back on a monday with a different excuse each time.
issue no. 3. she can't cook for herself. well, she can boil lots of things. and fry a little. so if we can't leave her cooked dinner, she would have boiled eggplant. boiled okra. fried dried fish. mind you, she would drive me nuts because she has a lot of things she said she wouldn't eat. no, i don't eat this. i don't eat that.
issue no. 4. she complains about the cloth diapers. they're washable and re-usable. hubby and i decided to use cloth diapers for dipdip during daytime so that we could prevent or minimize diaper rash. we only want her to use disposable diaper during the evening. she wouldn't directly complain to us. she would either talk to the baby or talk to the yayas in the neighborhood. there was even a time that she would sneak in a disposable diaper inside a cloth diaper. she was embarrassed when we caught her on the act. thankfully, it was the first and the last time that she did that. bottomline, she's lazy. she wants less or no laundry. all we asked her to do was to wash dipdip's clothing, including diapers.
issue no. 5. last week, she left us friday night when she's not supposed to. i knew she's excited to go home for the fiesta and get drunk. she came back on a monday morning looking sick. and pretended to have a cough. she said she has fever but when i took her temperature, it was a 34.6. Liars go to hell! then she told me she had hypertension and would like to go to the health center for a checkup. i had to take a leave of absence to attend to the baby.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Maybe I'm just plain tired. I can't write my thoughts any further. I'm going to bed now. And dream again. Of people and old acquaintances I haven't met in a long time. And still wonder why I do. And write about it. Get sleepy. And dream again. Wake up and wonder. And... yeah, I get you. This whole dream thing is going nowhere.
Monday, August 10, 2009
The mirror is no longer my friend. I hated looking at it. My postpartum body (especially my awful tummy) is just so depressing! Well, I tried not to be depressed. Mind over matter still works. Everytime I feel sad about it, I think about my trophy -- my baby! But it doesn't mean that I wouldn't try losing weight or getting back in shape. It just helps in conditioning my mind to be more PATIENT. Sometimes I even overeat especially when the table is overflowing with food. LOL. It's time to change that attitude. I promised myself I will get out of this weight. I can't stay this way. It sucks! I know I couldn't do it overnight. Losing weight is just a little harder to do. But it can be done.
Friday, August 7, 2009
I promised myself not to be overly dramatic. I knew it was coming. My retrenchment. Was it something I expected? Something I looked forward to? Or something I didn't want to happen? I won't divulge my answer to these questions. All I know is that my time has come. I'll be leaving the company in less than a month from now. For five long years, this company has honed me to become the best that I can be. Now it's time to spread my wings and fly. What's in store for me outside? I remember my mom used to tell me things that she learned from the bible. Things which helped me hold on to my faith in God. Now even though mom is no longer present physically with us, I can still hear her telling me these powerful words-- "No sparrows fall to the ground without the will of God." I know He has bigger and better plans for me. It is time to move on..... Consequent to the foregoing, we wish to inform you that we shall be constrained to retrench you effective August 31, 2009. Nonetheless, you shall receive all corresponding benefits due to you. Should we be notified of changes in the circumstances necessitating a resumption of the work force, we shall give you preferential priority......
I'm placing an ad here for all interested employers (wink): Please send your applications to me privately. Previous applicants need not apply. :) Just kidding. I might blog about my quest for a new employer pretty soon. Hopefully, I might try being a WAHM.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
i'm back with a lot of stories to tell. happy and sad. hopefully, i get to write about these on my subsequent updates.
first off, i'd like to thank the Designer's Chic for giving a new look to my blog. i never had the time to sit down and learn how to change layouts or design for a blog. i really wanted to have a 3-column layout for my blog. i wanted to learn how it's done but i just didn't have the time YET. thanks to Ivy for the overhaul. this would not have been possible too if it weren't for Jenneth. thanks net for the sponsorship.
right now, i'm just warming up a little bit. see you on my next update. if anyone is still reading me, please let me know. comment to this post, message me privately or send me an e-mail. whatever suits you. :)
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Monday, July 6, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
dipdip and dad's hand
Dipdip is now three months old! Wowww, look at how time flies. She used to be too small and fragile to hold, now she's grown taller and bigger each time. Thankfully, she's safe from sore eyes. Before she even turned 3 months, she's already squealing and giggling, and makes a lot of noises as if trying to speak out. I'm one happy and amused mother.
Dipdip's usually in a happy mood but I guess, in this picture, this is not one of those usual times. And oh, Sorry, I haven't lost that much weight yet :)
More updates soon. I've written thrice in a row already and it's almost twelve midnight, Cinderella would be mad if I would also leave my glass slipper behind. LOL.
Tomorrow, I'd definitely go blog hopping. Promise.
i don't usually write so much about celebrities. but MJ's songs have a great impact on me growing up. he's contributed so much to the music industry and there is no question about his talent as a composer, singer and dancer. i really don't know him personally and whatever negative writeups about him as a person, that is not for me to judge.
if there's only one song to choose from his many great hits, that would be "Man In The Mirror". I really love the message and the melody of this song.
I'm starting with the man in the mirrorTo the King of Pop, thanks for the great music you have shared to the world. may you rest in peace...
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change
honestly, parenting would be a difficult task without him. just like motherhood, fatherhood is also a full-time job. and it does not only take a day to appreciate what a wonderful father he is to our daughter.
i'm sure hubby would be sneaking in to this blog when he's not busy. i'd like to dedicate this post for all the times that he would put off buying something new for himself just so we could prioritize our daughter's needs; for all those nights of staying awake for our daughter; for putting off getting a haircut just so we could be home the earliest possible time for our daughter; and for being like a father to me in my childish times. i could flood this post with a lot of reasons why. i'll always be forever grateful to God for sending me such a wonderful husband.
of course, i didn't forget our fathers. i greeted my father-in-law and my dad. we are grateful for being wonderful parents to us and our siblings.
ultimately, we are grateful to God our Father for the many blessings that have come our way.
to all great fathers out there, husbands and fathers of my friends, we salute you! happy father's day...
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
At 2 months+, dipdip has found a new habit of feeding on her fist. She’s like eating fried chicken. She started to do that from the time that she no longer wore any mittens. I don’t know if all babies do this at a certain stage but it’s a habit that I don’t want to tolerate. I know that it wouldn’t be long until she would find thumb sucking even more enjoyable than her fist. I sure hope though she’d skip this stage.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I know alcohol is bad for me. So fyi, I didn't drink. :)
Friday, June 5, 2009
So there you go. After giving birth via c-section, I'm expected not to get pregnant within two to three years. Something to do with healthy pregnancy. My health, in general. Prior to giving birth, we've already agreed that we would only try the Billings method as our recourse for family planning. This is what the church had taught us during our pre-cana seminar. We were told that taking birth control pills, ligation and any other non-natural birth control methods are said to be "anti-life" and the church is against this. So that's my fear. Being tagged as "anti-life". However, just recently I had a discussion with my ob gyne and she said that we shouldn't try rhythm, withdrawal, condom or other natural methods as there's a higher risk of getting myself pregnant. I can't get pregnant again this early. That was her warning. In fact, right now I'm still battling my way to get rid of this postpartum hypertension. Sometimes I wonder, is it still postpartum hypertension? Or has it become chronic? So far, my blood pressure still hasn't gone above or below 130/90. They say it's borderline. Doctor said I cannot take birth control pills or opt for injectables if I'm hypertensive. My only choice would be ligation or IUD. Hmmm, Dipdip is my only child. Wouldn't I reconsider getting pregnant again someday? Ligation wasn't a better option. No, I don't want another incision, however small, this early. What about IUD? I think I might need to research more about this before I make my decision. But perhaps I'd get out of this hypertensive state so it couldn't get too complicated like this. Whoaaaaaa...
What about abstinence? :)
Monday, June 1, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Ever since I got back from work, I couldn't help but think about my daughter back home. Yes, it's separation anxiety. I know all working mothers go through this and it's only a matter of time till they can adjust to the situation, but, I don't know how long it would take for me, I just felt so bad about leaving my daughter behind to the care of a nanny when I should be the one attending to her.
Why bear a child and leave her behind? I thought if my daughter could only complain, she would probably ask me that. Mama and papa needs to work baby, so we can afford raising you and sending you to school someday.
It's called a mother's sacrifice. It's painful having to leave your child to somebody else, especially when that somebody is not even your relative. I don't want to think that Dipdip will feel more for her yaya more than her very own mother. I'd still like to think that the bond between a mother and a child could not be easily erased.
I am Dipdip's mother. Nothing and no one can take her away from me.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
"There is only one pretty child in the world, and every mother has it." - Chinese Proverb
wohooooo... what's up? dipdip is now two months old. wow, that was fast. it still feels like yesterday when i gave birth but when i look at my daughter, my golly, i can't believe that the child i'm seeing before my very eyes came from me! a product of love. she's grown bigger each day and Lord knows how thankful i am for giving me this wonderful gift. she will become my new inspiration. i will give all my best to be the kind of mom that she deserves.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
I just had to write about the gifts I received on the day of Mother's Day. Came right on time. They're like Mother's Day gifts and a baby shower. Oh, daddy pippen had one too. They're gifts from Jenneth. Thanks a lot, Tita Jenneth.
Thank you, Lord. And Jenn Lord. :)
Belated Happy Mother's Day, everyone. Actually, as Bchai puts it, everyday is Mother's Day. So, happy mother's day to us! Cheers!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
check out her before and after pictures.
DipDip at 4 weeks
DipDip at 6 weeks
My oh my, she's only less than two months old but look at her "siopao" face. LOL